Every year as Thanksgiving approaches, I am amazed at how quickly the year flew by. “It’s already November and we only have 1 month left?! It feels like it was the first of January just a second ago (!!!).” And as I get older, the years seem to go by faster. However, this makes me appreciate this time, these seasons of life, and the blessings I’ve been given. Thanksgiving for most is a time of reflection and thankfulness, and this year I have SO much to be thankful for.
2017 was one for the books, but I would be lying if I wasn’t ready for 2018 to get here. My mom used to always say, “There are good years and bad years.” I never understood how an entire year could be bad. Thats no possible, it’s so LONG, so much time. But this year, I learned to listen to my mother even more 😉. And not to say that the entire year was bad, but overall it was incredibly hard. There were growing pains, tears, hard lessons and huge sacrifices.
***WARNING: I am about to share my whole heart, my hard truth, & some things that are incredibly hard to admit. But the ending wouldn’t be so good if you didnt hear the nitty gritty 😁!***
I have been invested, working in, & dedicating everything to the Fashion Industry for over 9 years now. My life goals and passions were to be a small business owner, running a local boutique & doing good with my position and resources. At the beginning of this year, I was given what seemed like an amazing chance to obtain my dreams, but had to turn it down. It wasn’t the right time or place to chase after that goal. I found myself in another position in a different sector of the industry, and just not loving it. My passion was dwindling. This world wasn’t what I thought it was and I wasn’t where I wanted to be. Thankfully ( & not a moment too soon) I was poached from that store, to be brought on as a voice of change and support for another local Dallas boutique. I genuinely thought this change was the answer to my prayers and my new forever home. However, I couldn’t have been more horribly mistaken. 6 weeks in I learned that this change wasn’t working for any party, and I found myself without a job.
I have never been in a position where I was unprepared, not ahead of the game, and not completely secure in who I was or what I was doing. I’ve always been focused, driven, and decently successful. This was new territory for me.
So if you’re counting, that’s 3 major transitions in the span of 7 months. 3 significant life changes & the consistent feeling of uneasiness with no solid place in the world. I was in a quarter life crisis. The next 7 weeks I was forced to dig deep, fight back negative thoughts, heavy tears, & so much self doubt.
• What was my purpose in life?
• Where am I going? Where do I belong?
• What am I good at?
& the most important & hardest to accept:
• What was the Lord’s plan for me?
Fast forward to the end of the 7 weeks and I was faced with 2 options.
1. A Director position with a well known, incredibly successful player in the Fashion Industry
2. A Talent Acquisition Recruiter position at a Human Capital Management firm
Naturally, my instinct was to jump at the first option. But I could feel this tug towards the second. A tug I didn’t want to listen to. A tug in a different direction from my “plan”. A tug that would change my life. What I didn’t know at the time is that this “tug” was for the better.
If I were to choose my path for my life, I would have chosen the first option. But I am thankful I was able to hear the Lord’s voice & feel his strong pull towards the second. For 9 years I had set myself up on a path that was causing pain, frustration & unhappiness. A path I truly thought was best. By trusting in His plans and taking a HUGE leap of faith, I found a new security and happiness in life I never thought possible. I would have never thought in a million years this is where I would be, & I’ve never been happier.
So these days I spend my time at a desk, in a really cool office, helping other people better their lives & navigate their life changes. This transition has been a huge learning curve, & has caused me to be a little MIA with FGFB. But my love for fashion is still majorly prevalent & my full focus gets to be on the blog. I am so excited for the changes I will have coming in the new year.
So there it is: basically my whole life story & all my recent updates! Thank you all for reading this incredibly LONG post & loving me through my life and all its changes.